Stuff I wrote, but never finished or still working on them

idontwanttohidefromyouanymore
in the creases of my lies,
do you see the truth?
in the pages of scribbles,
do you see what i’m trying to write?
in the walls behind where my will stays firm,
do you see the storm i can’t stand against?
in the sparks of embers of the wildfire you light,
do you see the new beginnings i want to plant?
in the melody you snuck into my ears,
did you mean to bring rhythm into the depths of my soul?

untitled
i thought i was,
looking for her in you
when in reality,
it was the other way around.
and i guess time will be the death of me,
because i never get it right when i want it to.

untitled
i never paid attention to your face before,
but then one day
you did a weird frown,
with your eyes closed, and your hair perfectly parted
i remember blurting out,
“she’s cute”
i hope no one heard that.

submerge
for the past 2 years,
i’ve been chasing after a certain tempest
i ran away from a world,
i should’ve never left in the first place
and at first,
i kept telling myself,
that you’d be nothing more than a mere memory as i am to you now
but even in the winters i’ve nearly died,
in the nights i’ve tried desperately to cry,
or in the world i made of my own,
i could never fill that one void
i created myself
in a world of contradictions and liars,
you’re the only familiar face,
and in your anger, i know i’m still alive
all i do is in response to you telling me,
to “live a peaceful life”,
i’ve come far enough, don’t you think?
how much further do i need to go,
till we can laugh about everything that had gone wrong?

stars crashing
are you,
there tonight?
as the sky keeps falling,
i keep crossing my fingers as i sleep
that the stars fall heavy on my shoulders
saving you with my last breathe,
but who’s going to be there when i need saving?
a familiar face,
in an alien world
where does the path eventually end?
i don’t really know,
mr. moon could you please tell me,
when will my soul feel like yesterday’s laughters?
in all of this i see that,
নির্জনতায় আমি একা।

skyscrapers (WIP)
the cities are crashing,
in my mind
and in this metropolis of where everything can go wrong,
i will skewer the truth
to the extent where
truth and lies blur to one.

ms. ruin
she’s the one who ruins
the smile on his face
don’t know how to escape,
the cold in July
easing up the loose screws,
the plank falls heavy on either side
submerging into a sea,
but there’s no water below
all he feels is a cut,
through his neck
can you come through tonight?
or do you fear him letting go for good?
i think his hand is far gone into
the blood, sweat, tears you made
so why do you still stay by him?
there’s no light if you’re never letting go,
let him fly
he’s just about to lose all his feathers now.

the world falls with us (draft)
throughout the heavens,
the fangs pierce through
all the clouds come into one singularity,
in the wake of the cursed sky
the waves collide to the edges of the vast worldly expanse,
for the sweet ever after that lies in their demise
will surely appease him
behold, the reign of the unruly prince
as his lover is dead in the moonlight.

untitled
like a cigarette,
breathing in the fumes
i breathe you in,
and let go of me
in the ashes where my life crumbles away in the wind,
i, too, break apart in the cruel tempest,
you throw in
and if you’re wondering if i can’t take a bit of rain,
you’re a fool to think i don’t have an umbrella

the world falls with us (WIP)
in Tartarus,
i alone am the
fallen,
the false light in waking dreams,
and the one bathed in oblivion,
the harbinger of chaos,
in a proud kingdom
the pinnacle of hate,
or the tempest in the loneliest clouds,
the unruly prince.